I am exhausted, following a very strict juicing diet . I am very depressed and having trouble hanging on. The pressure of this decision over surgery/chemo is too much for me to bear. I DO NOT want it!!! Yet my family is turning against me because of this decision. I am alone all the time and feel overwhelmed and pressured. I just want to go be with Jesus. I cannot stop crying and feel worthless and hopeless. There is no counselor to talk to and our insurance is changing. I don't know what to do and am getting pressured on every side except by my husband who will not say what I should do. Please HELP ME GOD!